第92章 Seventeen(1)

作者:阿道司·赫胥黎

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-08 10:03

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本章字节:13212字

ar,science–youseemohavepaidafairlyhighpriceforyourhappiness,“saidhesavage,whenheywerealone“anyhingelse?”


“well,religion,ofcourse,”repliedheconroller“hereusedobesomehingcalledgod–beforehenineyears’warbuiwasforgeing;youknowallabougod,isuppose”


“well…”hesavagehesiaedhewouldhavelikedosaysomehingabousoliude,abounigh,abouhemesalyingpaleunderhemoon,abouheprecipice,heplungeinoshadowydarkness,aboudeahhewouldhavelikedospeak;buherewerenowordsnoeveninshakespeare


heconroller,meanwhile,hadcrossedoheohersideofheroomandwasunlockingargesafeseinohewallbeweenhebookshelvesheheavydoorswungopenrummaginginhedarknesswihin,“i’sasubjec,”hesaid,“hahasalwayshadagreaineresforme”hepulledouahickbckvolume“you’veneverreadhis,forexample”


hesavageooki“heholybible,conainingheoldandnewesamens,”hereadaloudfromheilepage


“norhis”iwasasmallbookandhadlosiscover


“heimiaionofchris”


“norhis”hehandedouanohervolume


“hevarieiesofreligiousexperiencebywilliamjames”


“andi’vegoplenymore,”musaphamondconinued,resuminghissea“awholecollecionofpornographicoldbooksgodinhesafeandfordonheshelves”hepoinedwihaughohisavowedlibrary–oheshelvesofbooks,herackfullofreadingmachinebobbinsandsoundrackrolls


“buifyouknowabougod,whydon’youellhem?”askedhesavageindignanly“whydon’yougivehemhesebooksabougod?”


“forhesamereasonaswedon’givehemohello:hey’reold;hey’reabougodhundredsofyearsagonoabougodnow”


“bugoddoesn’change”


“mendo,hough”


“whadifferencedoeshamake?”


“allhedifferenceinheworld,”saidmusaphamondhegoupagainandwalkedohesafe“herewasamancalledcardinalnewman,”hesaid“acardinal,”heexcimedparenheically,“wasakindofarchcommuniysongser”


“‘ipandulph,offairmin,cardinal’i’vereadabouheminshakespeare”


“ofcourseyouhavewell,asiwassaying,herewasamancalledcardinalnewmanah,here’shebook”hepullediou“andwhilei’mabouii’llakehisoooi’sbyamancalledmainedebiranhewasaphilosopher,ifyouknowwhahawas”


“amanwhodreamsoffewerhingshanhereareinheavenandearh,”saidhesavagepromply


“quiesoi’llreadyouoneofhehingshediddreamofinamomenmeanwhile,lisenowhahisoldarchcommuniysongsersaid”heopenedhebookahepcemarkedbyaslipofpaperandbeganoread“‘wearenoourownanymorehanwhawepossessisourownwedidnomakeourselves,weca


obesupremeoverourselveswearenoourownmaserswearegod’sproperyisinoourhappinesshusoviewhemaer?isianyhappinessoranycomfor,oconsiderhaweareourown?imaybehoughsobyheyoungandprosperoushesemayhinkiagreahingohaveeveryhing,asheysuppose,heirownway–odependonnoone–ohaveohinkofnohingouofsigh,obewihouheirksomenessofconinualacknowledgmen,coninualprayer,coninualreferenceofwhaheydoohewillofanoherbuasimegoeson,hey,asallmen,willfindhaindependencewasnomadeforman–haiisanu


auralsae–willdoforawhile,buwillnocarryusonsafelyoheend…’”musaphamondpaused,pudownhefirsbookand,pickingupheoher,urnedoverhepages“akehis,forexample,”hesaid,andinhisdeepvoiceoncemorebeganoread:“‘amangrowsold;hefeelsinhimselfharadicalsenseofweakness,oflislessness,ofdiscomfor,whichaccompaniesheadvanceofage;and,feelinghus,imagineshimselfmerelysick,lullinghisfearswihhenoionhahisdisressingcondiionisdueosomeparicurcause,fromwhich,asfromanillness,hehopesorecovervainimaginings!hasicknessisoldage;andahorriblediseaseiisheysayhaiishefearofdeahandofwhacomesaferdeahhamakesmenurnoreligionasheyadvanceinyearsbumyownexperiencehasgivenmeheconvicionha,quieaparfromanysucherrorsorimaginings,hereligioussenimenendsodevelopaswegrowolder;odevelopbecause,ashepassionsgrowcalm,ashefancyandsensibiliiesarelessexciedandlessexciable,ourreasonbecomeslessroubledinisworking,lessobscuredbyheimages,desiresanddisracions,inwhichiusedobeabsorbed;whereupongodemergesasfrombehindacloud;oursoulfeels,sees,urnsowardshesourceofallligh;urnsnaurallyandineviably;fornowhaallhagaveoheworldofsensaionsislifeandcharmshasbegunoleakawayfromus,nowhaphenomenalexisenceisnomorebolseredupbyimpressionsfromwihinorfromwihou,wefeelheneedoleanonsomehinghaabides,somehinghawillneverpyusfalse–arealiy,anabsolueandeversingruhyes,weineviablyurnogod;forhisreligioussenimenisofisnauresopure,sodelighfulohesoulhaexperiencesi,haimakesupousforallouroherlosses’”


musaphamondshuhebookandleanedbackinhischair“oneofhenumeroushingsinheavenandearhhahesephilosophersdidn’dreamabouwashis”(hewavedhishand),“us,hemodernworld‘youcanonlybeindependenofgodwhileyou’vegoyouhandprosperiy;independencewon’akeyousafelyoheend’well,we’venowgoyouhandprosperiyrighupoheendwhafollows?evidenly,hawecanbeindependenofgod‘hereligioussenimenwillcompensaeusforallourlosses’buherearen’anylossesforusocompensae;religioussenimenissuperfluousandwhyshouldwegohuningforasubsiueforyouhfuldesires,whenyouhfuldesiresneverfail?asubsiuefordisracions,whenwegoonenjoyingallheoldfooleriesoheverys?whaneedhaveweofreposewhenourmindsandbodiesconinueodelighinaciviy?ofconsoion,whenwehavesoma?ofsomehingimmovable,whenhereishesocialorder?”


“henyouhinkhereisnogod?”


“no,ihinkherequieprobablyisone”


“henwhy?…”