yes，alileooable；heywererighamenalexcesshadproducedinhelmholzwasoneffecsverysimirohosewhich，inbernardmarx，wereheresulofaphysicaldefecoolileboneandbrawnhadisoedbernardfromhisfellowmen，andhesenseofhisaparness，being，byallhecurrensandards，amenalexcess，becameinisurnacauseofwiderseparaionhawhichhadmadehelmholzsouncomforablyawareofbeinghimselfandandallalonewasoomuchabiliywhahewomensharedwasheknowledgehaheywereindividualsbuwhereashephysicallydefecivebernardhadsufferedallhislifefromheconsciousnessofbeingseparae，iwasonlyquierecenlyha，grownawareofhismenalexcess，helmholzwasonhadalsobecomeawareofhisdifferencefromhepeoplewhosurroundedhimhisescaorsquashchampion，hisindefaigablelover（iwassaidhahehadhadsixhundredandforydifferengirlsinunderfouryears），hisadmirablecommieemanandbesmixerhadrealizedquiesuddenlyhaspor，women，communalaciviieswereonly，sofarashewasconcerned，secondbessreally，andaheboom，hewasineresedinsomehingelsebuinwha？inwha？hawasheproblemwhichbernardhadcomeodiscusswihhim–orraher，sinceiwasalwayshelmholzwhodidallhealking，olisenohisfrienddiscussing，yeoncemore

hreecharminggirlsfromhebureauofpropagandabysynheicvoicewayidhimasheseppedouofhelif

“oh，helmholz，darling，docomeandhaveapicnicsupperwihusonexmoor”heyclungroundhimimploringly

heshookhishead，hepushedhiswayhroughhem“no，no”

“we’renoinviinganyoherman”

buhelmholzremainedunshakenevenbyhisdelighfulpromise“no，”herepeaed，“i’mbusy”andheheldresoluelyonhiscoursehegirlsrailedaferhimiwasnoillhehadacuallyclimbedinobernard’spneandsmmedhedoorhaheygaveuppursuinowihoureproaches

“hesewomen！”hesaid，ashemachineroseinoheair“hesewomen！”andheshookhishead，hefrowned“ooawful，”bernardhypocriicallyagreed，wishing，ashespokehewords，hahecouldhaveasmanygirlsashelmholzdid，andwihaslileroublehewasseizedwihasuddenurgenneedoboas“i’makingleninacrowonewmexicowihme，”hesaidinaoneascasualashecouldmakei

“areyou？”saidhelmholz，wihaoalabsenceofinereshenaferalilepause，“hissweekorwo，”hewenon，“i’vebeencuingallmycommieesandallmygirlsyoucan’imaginewhaahulbaloohey’vebeenmakingabouiahecollegesill，i’sbeenworhi，ihinkheeffecs…”hehesiaed“well，hey’reodd，hey’reveryodd”

aphysicalshorcomingcouldproduceakindofmenalexcessheprocess，iseemed，wasreversiblemenalexcesscouldproduce，forisownpurposes，hevolunaryblindnessanddeafnessofdeliberaesoliude，hearificialimpoenceofasceicism

heresofheshorflighwasaccomplishedinsilencewhenheyhadarrivedandwerecomforablysrechedouonhepneumaicsofasinbernard’sroom，helmholzbeganagain

speakingveryslowly，“didyoueverfeel，”heasked，“ashoughyouhadsomehinginsideyouhawasonlywaiingforyouogiveiachanceocomeou？somesorofexrapowerhayouaren’using–youknow，likeallhewaerhagoesdownhefallsinseadofhroughheurbines？”helookedabernardquesioningly

“youmeanallheemoionsonemighbefeelingifhingsweredifferen？”

helmholzshookhishead“noquiei’mhinkingofaqueerfeelingisomeimesge，afeelinghai’vegosomehingimporanosayandhepowerosayi–onlyidon’knowwhaiis，andican’makeanyuseofhepowerifherewassomedifferenwayofwriing…orelsesomehingelseowrieabou…”hewassilen；hen，“yousee，”hewenonas，“i’mpreygoodainveningphrases–youknow，hesorofwordshasuddenlymakeyoujump，almosashoughyou’dsaonapin，heyseemsonewandexciingevenhoughhey’reabousomehinghypnop？dicallyobviousbuhadoesn’seemenoughi’snoenoughforhephrasesobegood；whayoumakewihhemoughobegoodoo”

“buyourhingsaregood，helmholz”

“oh，asfarasheygo”helmholzshruggedhisshoulders“buheygosuchalilewayheyaren’imporanenough，somehowifeelicoulddosomehingmuchmoreimporanyes，andmoreinense，moreviolenbuwha？whaisheremoreimporanosay？andhowcanonebeviolenabouhesorofhingsone’sexpecedowrieabou？wordscanbelikexrays，ifyouusehemproperly–hey’llgohroughanyhingyoureadandyou’repiercedha’soneofhehingsiryoeachmysudens–howowriepiercinglybuwhaonearh’shegoodofbeingpiercedbyanaricleabouacommuniysing，orheesimprovemeninscenorgans？besides，canyoumakewordsreallypiercing–youknow，likeheveryhardesxrays–whenyou’rewriingabouhasorofhing？canyousaysomehingabounohing？ha’swhaifinallyboilsdownoiryandiry…”

“hush！”saidbernardsuddenly，andlifedawarningfinger；heylisened“ibelievehere’ssomebodyahedoor，”hewhispered

helmholzgoup，ipoedacrossheroom，andwihasharpquickmovemenflunghedoorwideopenherewas，ofcourse，nobodyhere

“i’msorry，”saidbernard，feellingandlookinguncomforablyfoolish“isupposei’vegohingsonmynervesabiwhenpeoplearesuspiciouswihyou，yousarbeingsuspiciouswihhem”

hepassedhishandacrosshiseyes，hesighed，hisvoicebecamepinivehewasjusifyinghimself“ifyouknewwhai’dhadopuupwihrecenly，”hesaidalmosearfully–andheuprushofhisselfpiywaslikeafounainsuddenlyreleased“ifyouonlyknew！”

helmholzwasonlisenedwihacerainsenseofdiscomfor“poorlilebernard！”hesaidohimselfbuahesameimehefelraherashamedforhisfriendhewishedbernardwouldshowalilemorepride

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