第12章 CHAPTERIVDOUBTSANDDIFFICULTIES(1)

作者:伊丽莎白·盖斯凯尔

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-06 10:05

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hinkingoverheday,hehappywalk,happyskeching,cheerfulpleasandi


er,andheuncomforable,miserablewalkinhegarden


howdifferenmenwereowomen!herewasshedisurbedandunhappy,becauseherinsinchadmadeanyhingbuarefusalimpossible;whilehe,nomanyminuesaferhehadmewiharejecionofwhaoughohavebeenhedeepes,holiesproposalofhislife,couldspeakasifbriefs,success,andallissuperficialconsequencesofagoodhouse,cleverandagreeablesociey,werehesoleavowedobjecsofhisdesiresohdear!howshecouldhavelovedhimifhehadbubeendifferen,wihadifferencewhichshefel,onreflecion,obeohawenlowdeepdownhensheookiinoherheadha,aferall,hislighnessmighbebuassumed,ocoverabiernessofdisappoinmenwhichwouldhavebeensampedonherownhearifshehadlovedandbeenrejeced


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oxsproposalbushesoonfeliwasnoabouanyhing,which


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leavehelsone,papa!buwhy?


mrhaledidnoanswerforaminueorwohepyedwihsomepapersonheableinanervousandconfusedma


er,openinghislipsospeakseveralimes,buclosinghemagainwihouhavinghecourageouerawordmargarecouldnobearhesighofhesuspense,whichwasevenmoredisressingoherfaherhanoherself


uwhy,dearpapa?doellme!


helookedupahersuddenly,andhensaidwihaslowandenforcedcalmness:


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margarehadimaginednohinglesshanhasomeofheprefermenswhichhermohersomuchdesiredhadbefallenherfaherassomehinghawouldforcehimoleavebeauiful,belovedhelsone,andperhapscompelhimogoandliveinsomeofhesaelyandsilencloseswhichmargarehadseenfromimeoimeincahedralowns


heyweregrandandimposingpces,buif,ogohere,iwasnecessaryoleavehelsoneasahomeforever,hawouldhavebeenasad,long,lingeringpainbunohingoheshockshereceivedfrommrhalessspeechwhacouldhemean?iwasallheworseforbeingsomyseriousheaspecofpieousdisressonhisface,almosasimploringamercifulandkindjudgmenfromhischild,gaveherasuddensickeningcouldhehavebecomeimplicaedinanyhingfrederickhaddone?frederickwasanouwhadherfaher,ouofanauralloveforhisson,co


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oh!whaisi?dospeak,papa!ellmeall!whycanyounolongerbeaclergyman?surely,ifhebishopwereoldallweknowaboufrederick,andhehard,unjus


iisnohingaboufrederick;hebishopwouldhavenohingodowihhaiisallmyselfmargare,iwillellyouabouiiwillansweranyquesionshisonce,buaferonighleusneverspeakofiagainicanmeeheconsequencesofmypainful,miserabledoubs;buiisanefforbeyondmeospeakofwhahascausedmesomuchsuffering


doubs,papa!doubsasoreligion?askedmargare,moreshockedhanever


o!nodoubsasoreligion;noheslighesinjuryoha


hepausedmargaresighed,asifsandingonhevergeofsomenewhorrorhebeganagain,speakingrapidly,asifogeoveraseask: